February. Mostly a rant.

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Hey.
It's February.

Anything significant? Not much. Well, not really I guess.
If you guys paid attention, all winners have responded to me.

I will mail the prizes as soon as I can. God, I hope they have no restrictions to what countries I'm sending them to. And I hope it's not too expensive, if not, I'll have to limit my giveaways a bit ><;

I love holding them, I really do.
Well, sorting out the entries wasn't my favourite part I guess.

Not everyone's I guess. Haha.

That was dry.


I am in no mood to blog, but I just wanna...uh, "welcome" the new month?

I don't like February...it brings a lot of memories.
Good ones, actually, but I shouldn't view them that way.

So....well, university workload is finally piling up D:

I hate reading now. It's so funny. I used to read for fun. Now it's a chore.

And my subjects mostly involve reading. HELLO. I'm a literature student. If I don't read, I don't qualify D:

I need drive and I lack that right now.
I want to be in charge of my life, sure, it's a bit hard to be in control, unless you're a born leader or a...control freak.

Or you're born confident. Me? Confident?

Heck---yes? No?

It depends.

In class, sure, I'm the one who talks a lot but I don't talk empty. And when I mean talk, I mean participate in discussions. I CAN'T BEAR HAVING A QUIET CLASS.

Well, excuse me for wanting to make things lively but hey, at least I'm not talking crap.

I actually DO ask legit questions and stuff.

Especially to things I really don't know the answer to on my own.

...and that includes 'love'.

Haha, no, no talk about those things.

What is love? Bullcrap.

Love does not exist. It blinds you.
It binds you to someone who leaves you.

That's so pessimistic of me, no?

Oh, shush, I'm so optimistic about it that I need to calm down and stop writing about it.

I've only had ONE boyfriend and ONE ex.

That's it.

That sums it up, no?

Do I want a new one?

No.

I'm happy with my cats.

Call me a cat lady but my cats sure as hell make me happy and occupy me. Sure, they can only meow and need their litter boxes cleaned daily, and they can't really feed themselves but they're cute and cuddly and warm.

A cat is a baby that never grows up.
And has fur.

And stays with baby talk forever.


I did an impromptu photoshoot yesterday.
Didn't get much photos but I did manage to snap a pic of me actually smiling.

A forced smile, can you tell?

With my crooked front tooth. Didn't bother to edit the skin. And by edit, I mean airbrush. I think my makeup or lack of proper one (sheer BB Cream coverage with concealer and powder, lack of shadows and lack of proper eyeliner), still managed to cover my flaws okay. You can see my skin isn't perfect but eh. It passes.

With makeup.

On my lips I used Etude House products, the lipliner and a lipgloss.

I spent most of my time wearing the wig and the lenses. I hate these lenses, it hurts my eye. My right one, only. It could be damaged but I dunno.

This is my February 1st look. LOL.

Would I dye my hair this colour? Maybe. One day.

It'd be too high maintenance.

I wish I had naturally grey eyes.

Ah well.

Oh, and the hand?

It was to cover this weird zit. More like a carbuncle D: NO.

UGH. I hate those things. Maybe I've been eating too many sweet things. Probably.

I only want sweet things.


Sweet things are nice.


What's in store for February?

Hell.

Or not.

We'll see.

In the meantime, I should be reading 'Sense and Sensibility' today because tomorrow, I'd be super busy.

Ah well.

Have a great February I guess :)


Take care, everyone.

-Nisah-

Baby Doll Dress Photoshoot Preview

I....I should be blogging about the Lolita Tea Party that I went to the other day, but I shall wait for my friend to blog about that so I can link you guys to her blog lol

I'm sure she'd have a more in-depth account of the event. She is, after all, one of the hostesses :)
I think she planned a successful event and I'm happy for her ^^

I'm so tired from the photoshoot today.
But at least I had very yummy cake to snack on. Though that resulted in a bloated face throughout the photoshoot lol.


I have.....2 people who's going to edit the photos. Two people with different styles and perception of beauty. I will also edit some photos that I'd love to edit LOL.

Some easy ones though, that won't need much edit, because I'm still a noob at it.

Here are some photos:

I edited this :) Just smoothed the skin and edited the lighting.

For this shoot, I was too lazy to pile on makeup on the face, so I told myself it can just be photoshopped lol. I just used concealer and my mineral loose powder. Another reason is that my friend was planning to use flash photography so I didn't want any SPF on me.

So yeah, simple makeup only. Just to cover most of the scarring I have on my face. On my eyes, just a white sticky base and brown-gold eye makeup. For the lips, I lined my lips a bit and finished off with my Dior Lipgloss. In some of the shots I forgot to re-apply. Sigh.

Really need a proper makeup artist to do touch-ups.

The lashes stand out too much lol. They're my natural-looking falsies though. Maybe next time, I'll use the more extreme ones.

Edited by photographer/Maj. Looks very studio-like!

The colour reminds me of Glee. Is it just me? The background, I mean.

This makes me look like a Disney Princess.
Cross between Alice and Sleeping Beauty.

Very creepy. Edited by Maj.

This looks very book-like.

What would the title be?

( 'w' ) ........looks very classic, this edit.

It's after this shoot on the floor did I rip my skirt. DAMN.
Of all times.

It's not obvious, but it's ripped LOL.
Twice actually.
Sigh.


LOL. And another shot I liked (and edited):

Toto liked grass more than posing. Nisah is sad :(

This wasn't meant to be a serious photo but I thought it looked nice LOL.
Way better than some poses I did XD

I mostly had fun with my friends. Thanks to Maj, the photog and to Tin (or Ten) the assistant/baker of the day. She baked yummy matcha sponge cake.

Good thing this wasn't a modeling shoot or the client would have fired me already LOL.


Took close to 300 shots but yeah, only some were good :)
That is the life of photoshoots.

Unless you're very pretty, thin and flawless and knows all your good angles.

I guess.

LOL.

Will post more in the future :)

'til then!

-Nisah-

P.S: I'm so tired, I actually jumped a few times and hurt my feet ):

Baby Doll Dress :D + Korean Food For Dinner

I went to get my dress from the tailor today :)
I'm actually really, really satisfied with it. I feared the worst, you see. So I guess that's good to not put my hopes too high. Sure, it's a different interpretation than what I had in mind, but to have put blind faith into a place I've never made clothes from before, it was a risk that paid off.

Right? Don't you think so?

Sure, it's not perfect, but I think it's cute. Really cute :)
Dad always nagged that the clothes I made always had no other use other than photoshoots or certain events, so I made sure this time the dress can be used on another occasion.

For this dress: PREGNANCY DRESS.

It has elastic bands around the tummy area so win-win :D
Plus it's so cute :)

I'm sure my future husband wouldn't mind. Whoever he is.

The only beef I have with this are the white parts, apparently it's like fabric for school clothes so :/

Ah well lol.
Maybe in the future I can alter it.

I should've made the sleeves detachable :O

Anyway, here are some pics of me in it LOL

Forgot to put on the shoes. I assure you, it's shorter.

I just finished fixing this wig last night ( ;w; ) it's been tangled so much, I cut a bunch of tangles off.

I'm surprised at how well it fits the dress.

Someone said it reminded her of Alice in Wonderland.

Sigh. It made me feel like I should have done the video shoot in this dress instead LOL.

Without the wig. I find this dress suitable for the Lapis Lazuli necklace too.

Blue....again.
Sigh.
I don't even like blue ):

Feeling blue I guess.

Honestly, I wouldn't mind going out with this dress.
Sure, people might think I'm pregnant but who cares XD

I'm sure my babies will be cute.

If I can have kids.

Yesterday's Dinner

I had some Korean Spicy Rice Cakes from Seoul Garden. It was nice :)

But I had a tummy ache today.
I wonder if it's from this :O lol

Maybe because I ate a lot.
Look at the side-dishes!!!
SIX SIDE DISHES.

LIKE OMG WTF.

Will definitely go there more often :)

It was yummy. Thank goodness there were no shrimps. I HATE shrimps.

Okay :)

Might blog again later!!

Have a nice day!

-Nisah-

P.S: My maid got angry coz I told her I was charged $80 for making the dress, headband and the non-poofy bloomer. I'm sorry I was afraid to haggle ( ;w; )

Oh yeah, extra pic :)

Will this work...?

So, the texture of my skin's been pretty bad.
Dare I say it's like....rough, bumpy....dry-ish.

I dunno, but I hate it.

I'd post pictures but I'm ashamed lol;
I guess I can post some HQ zoom-ins of my recent photoshoot. Although that's covered by a bit of makeup.
Sad thing is, you can still see the bumps.

Might get disgusted LOL (you've been warned)

This is WITH light powder and layers of concealer!

THE BUMPS. THE FUCKING BUMPS!

By this time, my makeup's melted so yeah.

For a photoshoot, I didn't want to use too much makeup, planned to photoshop them. It was a small at home photoshoot, hence I didn't use BB Cream nor Foundation.

You can see how the bumps are my worst enemy right now.
Clogged pores = acne.

And I heal very slowly ):

So I hate it.
I hate my skin right now.

Hated it so much I went back to something that might not work but it's called desperation.

THIS. Or rather, I went from OXY10 to THIS.

 When I used OXY10, it didn't work. It never did.
But then back then I nevr experienced these bumps.
These clogged pores, just acne here and there.

Back then is not now.
So now, I need to try this out again.

At a less concentrated formulation.

With that, I also got this.

SkinLab's Concentrated Vitamin E Cream

What it's supposed to do.

The reason why I got this was because Bio-Oil, even though it worked, was too oily for me.

But this, it sinks right into the skin.

I haven't seen much results. I'll wait for a week.

But I only use this at night.

Same with the OXY5.

Hope this works for me :(

I feel a bit sad today...

But ah well.

'til then!

-Nisah-

Alice in MuchuuLand Photoshoot

After a while of not doing photoshoots, I had to force my sister to do a small one yesterday.
It wasn't successful lol because I was uncomfortable in my skin right now :/
Acne scars, being fat...etc.

I did wear makeup, no foundation or BB cream, just concealer and powder. Hence, it wasn't heavy coverage. Still had to Photoshop the skin a bit.

Here are some of the pictures:

My favourite shot. It was hard because I was scared and disgusted. lol There are snakes around you see. And ants and other things D: Leaning onto the fence is just....ugh. But got a great shot!

The White Rabbit. Can you see it?

I like shots like these...but it's quite obvious that I gained weight.

My second favourite shot. Now it just reminds me of when my heart got broken again.

Full view them if you want to :)

I don't feel like celebrating my coming birthday soon. Not so much.

Not looking forward to it at all.

'til then!

-Nisah-