Trying to Lose 10kg

Hello...
It's been a while since I last blogged. I'm so sorry!
I've been having a hard week or two, and apparently it caused me to have my period again.


Anyway, I actually had a Miri haul I was supposed to put up, but I actually didn't take photos. I can still include it in a collective haul post I guess.

Going back to the title of the post...yes.
I'm trying to lose 10kg (22 pounds). I just started working out again yesterday. Today too.
I dunno how long I'm supposed to expect myself to be at that state, 2 months? Or less? Hopefully.


Last year, I worked out a lot. That was until I got really ill.
My stomach problems really got in the way.

I didn't gain much weight back, in fact, I actually lost weight (mostly muscle?). I'm at 60kg.
Yes. I'm that heavy.


I was heaviest in 2009, at 71kg I think. Or even more!! *edit: I think it was 75kg o.o*

My height is at 5'2, or about 157.5cm/158cm.
My BMI is at about 24-24.2....which is actually NORMAL.

I just checked.
Omg lol. I'm at normal!


BUT my target weight is really at 50kg, even 48kg if possible.
I'm never been lean, so that's my goal.


You know how smaller clothes are cheaper sometimes? Yeah, that's one of the reasons.
Plus, I need to look good for my new single.

I don't wanna look chubby ):


Should I take my measurements? Yeah, I should.


Anyway, I'm gonna work out with Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred.
I'm at Level 1 for now.

At the same time, I'm gonna mix it up with Blogilates and some other stuff.


As with food, I'm gonna try and cook for myself.


BUT OH.
Chocolates ):

My weakness.



Anyway, it's sooo hard to lose weight in a family like mine.
But I need to learn self control on my own.


Yeah.


Boring update BUT I really need to lose weight.
Are you on a weightloss journey too?


Do you think I can survive?

Can I lose 5kg in a month?
I think so.


I can do this. I don't need a gym.

I wished that our treadmill is working though ( ;w; ) it's much more enjoyable.



COME AT ME, MUSCLE SORENESS!!!


'til then, take care!
Selamat Hari Raya, Eid Mubarak!!

-Nisah-

Seems Like I'm Sick Again (Sis Gave Me Stuff Too)

I mean, my stomach problems may be back. I was never really cured of it, was I?
I'm not so sure. I stopped seeing my doctor and taking my meds, I seemed fine for a while.

Until quite recently, I dunno, I had food poisoning last week? I can't remember. Checking my Twitter, it was on the 23rd, it's been nearly 2 weeks. In between, I also got my period.


At first I didn't care for it, nor did I notice it so much, but ever since the poisoning, I realised that I had like, an automatic aversion to some things, and I also noticed that even when I am just taking a few bites during Iftar, I start getting super nauseous. I don't end up throwing up immediately but the nausea was immediate.

My family's noticed me complaining about things making me nauseous, smells and stuff.
God forbid that I'm pregnant because:

1) I'm single as fuck.
2) I'm having my period.
3) My boobs are still small.


Right now I'm having migraine and just some other thingies.
My stomach has been hurting like hell, like, physically. It's as if I just did sit-ups but no, I never did.


I'm not doing anything like strenuous exercise either. It just hurts. Period.


Physical pain D:


I'm like, angry and tired of it. I hate having to deal with my stomach. Stomach related pain is something I seemed to have since I was small and you know, I'm just tired of it.


Doctors are tired of my face, I'm tired of their faces.
It's a neverending cycle.


I can still function well, yes, but it ain't fun when you suddenly double over from the pain.



Or you wake up with these...I guess stomach cramps...? That you'd rather not wake up at all.


I don't wanna talk to my dad about it because he'll just make my blood boil.
My mom's like "Are you drinking milk?"

"Yeah. It doesn't help."


I mean, I dunno. I don't wanna be paranoid but I don't want my intestines to just burst out of the blue and I'm dying from it.


It's just not a nice way to die.



Anyway.

Look what my sis got me lol.

There's a reason for the tears. lol.

She gave me a Himalaya Herbals Kajal Liner and a Stila Lip Glaze in Logan Berry.

I haven't tried the lip glaze yet~

I swatched my sister's Kajal liner and I wasn't...very impressed.

But we'll see.

Anyway...this is what surprised me.

A Boyfriend Pillow.

Do I just look that sad?

Ah well.

Thanks though lol.

It's not as comfy as the real deal but whatevs~

Haha.

'til then take care :)

I will try and see a doctor soon I guess.

-Nisah-