My December Giveaway!!

Since I noticed that a lot of people entered my previous giveaway, I decided to hold a flash giveaway! I don't think it's fair that only one person gets to win so I'm giving another chance for you all to win!

The prizes aren't as fancy as before but it's about the same value :)

All in all, 9 items (including the pouch). The lipstick shown here is mine, I'll get the prize one tomorrow 

You will get all of the items listed on the widget and it will be put into the pouch you will also receive.

The rules are the same as before:

This giveaway is not sponsored. Below are the rules for this giveaway:

1) It is open internationally. 

2) Participants must have permission to share their address as I need it to send the prizes (for international entries and participants not from Brunei Muara, unless we can meet up at Bandar). 

3) Winner will be chosen at random. Should the winner not contact me within 48 hours, he or she will forfeit it and a new winner will be selected, also at random.

4) Giveaway hunters would not be entertained. Unfollowing just as soon as the giveaway ends would result in getting blacklisted.

5) Once I reach a hundred followers, a new giveaway would be announced (This would be a huge one, believe me you :D)

a Rafflecopter giveaway


The only compulsory step this time is to:

- Leave a comment on what items you would prefer for future giveaways

If you want to earn extra entries, feel free to add more entries :D

I don't have swatches of the palette here but the ones I saw online are pretty :) This one is more colourful than the previous one. It has a golden yellow, orange and reddish tone that would look so beautiful as a sunset eyelook! And it also has neutral colours as well.

If you wanna take a look at the palette and swatch, kindly visit this site (I love this blog btw)

As for the lipstick, it's a nice buildable sheer nude that I am loving right now. It doesn't dry up the lips and is moisturizing. It has a slight fruity fragrance to it.

The two masks you will be receiving: a whitening and dead skin removing sheet mask and one is a charcoal pack which is good to deep cleanse your pores. I believe you can use it at least twice or three times, depending on how well you store it.

Okay, so that's it :D

If you're interested in winning these prizes, do join the giveaway!


I have a special giveaway for the New Year's! There will be 2 to 3 winners, depending on the situation! And yes, it WILL be international!

What are you waiting for? Follow my blog to know what it'll be!

Good luck everyone!

-Nisah-

P.S: The winner of the previous giveaway has been chosen. Is it you? Do check! Are you the winner?

My Experience with Endoscopy

On the 20th of November, I had an invasive procedure known as endoscopy. There are two types of endoscopy, one is of the upper part of the abdomen (Upper GI Endoscopy) which covers the esophagus, stomach and the duodenum (the first part of the small intestine). The other one is called colonoscopy (Lower GI Endoscopy), basically it covers mostly the colon, hence the name.

Photo from the internet. Not mine.

I had both. On the same day. FUN.

I was given preparation a week prior to the procedure. I was given two 45ml bottles of Fleet Phospho-Soda which I dub the 'salty shit'. It's an unflavoured oral saline laxative. What I wanna say is: UNFLAVOURED MY ASS. It's basically salt. Salt. SALT. I think

First, I tried it with some juice. BIG MISTAKE. It was too much and heck, I poured too much juice. Basically I was battling orange sea water. I had to use a straw because I had a cut on my lip and you DO know, salt and cuts don't mix.

I struggled so much with it. I wanted to cry. I had to fast too so I had no relief whatsoever of the salty shit. I had to drink 7000mg of salt, TWICE. It was just horrible. The second one I had to drink, I decided to just drink it with a bit of water, because obviously juice failed.

I was instructed to drink 2 litres of water after drinking it. So I did. Waited after a while....then the explosive diarrhoea comes. Interestingly, it didn't hurt at all. Just annoying. I decided to not sleep the whole night (one thing, it's because I still am having problems adjusting with my normal sleeping pattern and two, I just wanna be tired enough during the procedure). I forgot what I actually did but I think I was on Facebook the whole time.

So basically the whole night I was an owl, whose best friend was water and the toilet.

Come the time to go to the hospital, I actually napped a bit after my second bottle of Fleet. I was almost too reluctant to go. I was scared, anxious and tired.

But after all that painful prep, it'd be insane not to go, right??

So yeah,  I didn't even care how I looked. I just wanted it to be over. I should have braided my hair had I known how it was gonna be.

My dad took the day off to go to the hospital with me, my lil' sis came too.

Unfortunately, we weren't informed beforehand that I was to be waiting in the recovery room until it was time to go. So I had to ask my dad and sis to leave and I was left alone.

I was prepped before the procedure. They inserted that....needle thing that's usually for IV and the nurse in charge injected something I don't know. Was it for me to not throw up? Because I told her I threw up once. She then asked if I had any experience with the procedure, allergies, etc. Routine questions basically. I asked her if it'd would hurt, she said it would but I would be sedated.

After that, I was told to change my jeans into the....cloth thing and remove my underwear. The removing underwear part was not very nice. I felt exposed. Way too exposed lol.

She told me that after she injects the painkiller to my bum, I wouldn't be allowed to go to the toilet anymore, so I went one last time. Then when it was time to inject my bum, it hurt. LOL. But I'm used to it.

Then comes the weird feeling.

That weird feeling of losing feelings in your legs...getting numb and numb every second. I went to sleep after that, because it was freaking me out.

I was then woken up by two nurses, I was very drowsy then, I had a hard time moving to the stretcher and had to be assisted. After I was snug, I fell back asleep.

I was partially awake, so I felt them put the anesthesia/or oxygen thingy for my nose and they had a hard time adjusting it to my ear (hence why I said I should have braided my hair).

During the colonoscopy, I didn't really feel it. I mean, I FELT it, it HURT. I think the nurse held my hand since I was crying out in pain. There were a few instances where it felt like it was poking my uterus? I felt it cramp there a few times. I actually didn't feel it in me then, because of the sedatives, I believe, but it still hurt ):

After a while, I fell asleep again UNTIL, I felt them put something in my mouth.

Here is where it became unbearable.

They put this ring ring in my mouth to prevent me from closing it, and then the endoscopy tube was inserted. This was unbearable for me because I can't talk, I can't really scream, I whimpered.

I wanted to say "Take it out! Take it out!" but obviously I can't. Thankfully though, it didn't last that long.

If I had to compare the Upper to Lower, I can take the lower one better.

I mean, at least I'm used to period cramps right??


*I could have sworn they told me I pooped a bit*

Moving on, I was put back to my bed, I was out cold. I just wanted to sleep but I could still feel the scope in my throat and it was horrible.

I could care less when I started becoming gassy.
My colon was clean, so there was no smell at all lol.


The nurse in charge then told me that the doctor told me to rest until at least 2pm. I didn't mind. I liked hospital beds. They make me sleep.

They served me lunch and tea time. Had my favourite one too :) the oyster sauced chicken.
Af first I couldn't eat much as I felt drowsy and nauseous.

Wanting to go to the toilet, the nurse told me to not lock the door just in case I fell down I guess.

When it was time for me to go, the nurse asked if my family members were present and I told her they were waiting in the car. She then finally told me.


She said it was all normal.

I looked at her in disbelief.

She said it was mostly my intestines spasming. My throat was also red from all the vomiting but that was it.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing, to be honest.

They saw no diverticuli, nothing. Zilch.

They did take a biopsy though, and I'll have the result next Tuesday.

Odd isn't it?



Back in Japan, I was diagnosed with diverticulosis/diverticulitis using a CT Scan.

I had inflammation then too.


These pockets don't disappear.
So where did it go?

I'm still puzzled but only the doctor will know.


I decided not to take my meds from the pharmacy just yet because I was gonna go see my psychiatrist on the 22nd. Bad move.


I slept early that day.

Woke up with severe stomach pain.

So yeah, bad move to not get my meds.


It was so painful. I couldn't laugh much, I couldn't walk that much. I decided to sleep it off.

I'm guessing they took samples from the left side since it hurt there a lot.


So yeah, I wasn't really informed about the aftereffects of the procedure, but I should have asked, right?

Yeah.


Anyway~ we'll see how it goes next week.


I only realised there were some drawbacks to the procedure when I looked it up LOL. Fail.

So yeah, I got more medicine, I need to up my fiber intake and whatnot.

I shall talk about the results next week hopefully :)


I wanted to blog more but I'm kinda tired~ Tomorrow maybe!

Okay then.

Take care!

-Nisah-

*Shall add more photos tomorrow*

Collective Haul + Update

So yeah, here comes a pic heavy blogpost y'all!

Kinda.

So this is basically a collective haul that I hauled in 2 weeks or so. Kinda. And some gifts here and there. Most of them? Impulse buys, not gonna lie.

I don't remember which came first but yeah, I do distinctly remember some bits here and there~

Let's start:

Talking about Etude House Haul~ (in Two Days)

First day. Uhm. The brushes and the small pump thing is from Super Save btw.

Look at My Eyes in: Lemon Sherbet, Milk Cocoa, Silver Gray

Okay, lemme explain.

I got these three for BND$9.90.

What a steal right?? They were having a clearance sale. I decided to choose a set that was most 'me'. Well to be honest, I like the yellow and brown. But the gray----I thought it was a purple.

I don't like the gray one yet. But it might looks nice layered over a white base. Or for a smokey look.

Swatches of all three.

As you can see, the colour payout for the gray one is a bit disappointing. It's more gritty than smooth like the other two. I once ranted how Korean eyeshadows are always shimmer and no colour but this proved me wrong.

The yellow would look awesome above my 'Base Hit Kit' I think.

Second item I got was:

A Missing U! Tin

I've always wanted one, reason being I needed a place to store my magnetic eyeshadows I got from e.l.f cosmetics. Plus, it's cute :D

Lemon Sugar Hand Lotion

Now this one was an impulse buy. It was on the counter. For a dollar. Last one too...so yeah, I grabbed it and the rest was history. It's decent, it smells weirdly like lemony alcohol rather than sugary.

Oh yeah, my favourite SA, Princess Tara (I think) was there and she complimented my nails XD

I told her two of the colours were from Etude House and one of them was from TheFaceShop.

I was sad the colour wasn't available anymore. The deeper pink, because I wanted to do a giveaway with it! It's okay, I'll find a dupe!

On the same day, I also went to The Body Shop.

My sis who is studying in the UK recommended me this Deep Sleep spray, however when we went there, we found out that it was banned in Brunei o.o

Why? I guess they fear people would misuse it.

So dad got me this instead:

An oil burner and an essential oil in 'Quiet Night'

Did it work?

It did make me drowsy but not enough to sleep I guess.

Can't deny how Halloween-y it looks like.

It smells nice though.

EDIT: Nearly forgot. On the day I went there, Josesphine was there too lol. I greeted her. I asked her if she remembered me. She took a while, because I was wearing my contacts. Then I reminded her that I was the girl with the allergy LOL. She immediately remembered.

I told her that I was having hard time sleeping (Like right now) and that it's taking a toll on my skin (acne D:). She asked me and my sis to smell lavender and then it wasn't pleasant. She told us, if the lavender smells bad to us, that means we're stressed.

I swatched this lovely colour called Golden Paprika. I WAS IN LOVE.
UGH.

But then I just got something from Etude House so no.

She thanked us for still patronising The Body Shop (even after what had happened).

Well, to be fair, I've always like The Body Shop. It's just a shame I got a bad allergic reaction. She told me they've reformulated the body mist now but I haven't tried it.

My look of the day on that day. LOL

Damn, it got desaturated like hell, sorry.

Oh yeah, I also got this thing...from WW Mart:

Brush Holder/Drier

Really helpful :D Other than this, I also got two other plasticky things. I used it to put my makeup palettes and my skincare stuff.

And then something happened.

My weird self got the best of me.

I wanted MORE of the Etude House eyeshadows. At least another set.

So I got it.

Begrudgingly.

I also wanted to get the flat-top brush from Super Save for my cousin BUT it was sold out D: what. The day before that, there were FIVE or SIX more, I swear!!

Wtf.

So yeah, I got this:

Look at My Eyes in: Apricot Illusion and Vanilla Cream.
Look at My Eyes Icing in: Sugar Icing

Actually, for this set, it had the same Milk Cocoa shade but the SA was kind enough to exchange one colour since I told her I bought the same colour the day before. The manager was there too :)

I haven't opened these as I find no need to, yet. I might open the Sugar Icing, to check the texture, which the SA said is gel-like.

My favourite SA wasn't there D:

But I always kinda love Etude House SAs, they're always helpful and they smile a lot more, I noticed, than the other SAs I've encountered so far.

Yesterday, my sister gave me this dress she ordered online that didn't fit her:

Lovely colour for my skintone. Sorry for the bad photo ><

Unfortunately, it's bare-back.

She said I should either sew a chiffon based fabric to the dress or wear something else that covers it up.

It's a weird dress. Doesn't show my fat stomach that much LOL.

Hair accessory/band from SJ

I wore this today when I went out, it went well with my blue polkadot shirt:

This is true to colour I think.

But yeah, you can't really see the band:

Crappy front camera.

I didn't wear any eyeshadows today, just BB Cream and my Tutti Frutti Lip Butter.

Derp.

I actually wanted to tuck in my shirt but everyone opposed D:

Too 90s?

Actually I had my hair in two tiny buns but this was after going out LOL.

Because I didn't have time to vain before going out for sushi.

Fits my mouth okay.

I had mostly vegetable based sushi. Was craving for the veggies.

Impulse Buy

I didn't mean to get them, I swear!!!

I only wanted the nailpolish but then I saw the sugar scrub!!

But after I bought it, I realized.

What was I thinking??

It was overpriced D:

Damn. Even with member's discount it was still overpriced.

But the nailpolish colour was to die for D: It's in GR505, btw.

Last but not least~

Here are the products I use mostly when I go out:

'Base Hit Kit', 'Mischievous Marissa', Petit BB Cream in 'Clearing'

My disgusting concealer palette. (Which I do recommend, btw LOL)

Either one of the lip products and also, the Sexy Mama Translucent Powder which I still don't know how to use.

So yeah....

You know, I'm contemplating on giving away the same kind of concealer palette or the 15 colour concealer palette in the future. Which one would you prefer?

I honestly do like this one, it's not that creamy. It depends. If your skin is too dry, don't even think of this palette lol. Use a liquid concealer!

I haven't found a holy grail for my foundation routine. That's smudge-proof, oil-proof, etc.

Oh and, I wanna adopt this cat :D

Her name is Pinky!

But I might call her Pinky Marina.

Look at her surprised eyes O.O

I hope she'll be a good baby.

And that she'll make me happy.

I think that's all for an update XD;

Hope you enjoyed my collective haul post!

Yes, I can hear you.

I need to not go to shops for a month.

Damn.

So yeah, good night :D

I have an appointment tomorrow with the Endoscopy specialist.

I hope everything's fine.

Take care, everyone!!

-Nisah-

P.S: If you haven't already, join my 100th Post Giveaway here!! I'll be adding some brushes because the sponge applicators are too harsh for the eyes!

A Series of Unfortunate Events (feat. Kat)

*Photos will be added later*

Okay, so like, I've been procrastinating for a few days now.
But tonight, or rather, yesterday night, I actually had something interesting to blog about. Unfortunately I didn't get to do an OOTD/N or makeup, etc. It was really last minute.

You see, my friend Kat, invited me to go see this musical thing supposedly held at JIS. She got some free tickets and I've never been to a show in a while so I wanted to go.

I was fine, UNTIL, I got a sudden fever at about 6PM on Friday.

I was like "Where the hell did this come from??"

My nose was runny, tissues were next to me, coughed, some phlegm here and there. Basically, I was just sick. So suddenly sick!

I was watching Elizabeth: The Golden Age with my sister, sniffing and sneezing.

I tried to sleep early, I had some chamomile tea. I WAS sleepy.

But then, I was so sick, it was hard to sleep. My fever was high, and my nose was killing me and then my cheeks hurt for no reason (I'm guessing from all the sneezing). I got suddenly depressed.

All I wanted was someone to talk to, but no one was available unfortunately.

I was throwing up everything I ate, it was just, bad.

But then, I've been throwing up for 2 months now. So yeah.

I ended up watching some Youtube videos.

Somehow, I did fall asleep.


I woke up to the sound of my Whatsapp. It was around 11:30am, ish.

Apparently I forgot to turn off my wi-fi.

Anyway, I immediately asked Kat if she was gonna pick me up/what was the plan.
I told her I woke up from a nightmare.

In the nightmare, I was killing people. It was kinda like Lucius (been watching the Let's Plays, I guess). It kept repeating until I killed everyone correctly, basically.

Which was weird.

I told Kat I was feverish and my chest was hurting. Basically I needed to go back to sleep.

Considering my stomach problems, I think fevers are bad. It could mean anything. Especially if it's sudden. But then, my immune system might just be very bad now. Not to mention, I've been bruising a lot for no reason.

I'm getting less fat. I'm not gonna say thinner. Just less fat. I'm planning on starting exercising again when my body can take it.

Anyway, after a discussion of things, I told her I wanted to rest so I could feel better before the actual musical.


Again, I forgot to turn off my wi-fi.

I was then awoken again by the sound of my Whatsapp.

It was Kat.

Calling out my name repeatedly.
It was around 5.30pm.

She told me to get ready.

I wasn't feeling THAT well (mostly groggy) and I had a sore throat.

I went looking for my parents to tell them I was gonna go WHEN my dad told me not to. Because I was sick.

But I wasn't feeling THAT bad.

They kept telling me not to go, just in case something bad happened to me.

In my head, all I could think of was the word: Hypocrite.


This is an event I really wanted to go to, and here they are, saying not to go because I was sick. Yes, I was sick.

But hello~ when I was having a difficult time breathing and wanted to go to the hospital, who wasn't there to send me? Yes. Them.

Hypocrite moment there.


I went against their wishes basically, silently hoping nothing bad will go wrong because, in Muslim or just Bruneian beliefs, if you disobey your parents, you get 'ketulahan', bad luck, karma etc. Basically something will go wrong.

At first I texted Kat I wasn't allowed to go. Then I said I will go anyway.

Kat was already a bit late picking me up (but I didn't mind because I was still getting ready) but yeah, she arrived around 7.25pm.

*She said I smelled yummy and that she wanted to eat me. Kat, it's Victoria's Secret "Love Spell"*

The show was supposed to start at 7.30pm.

Well, we're already late.

AND THEN.

Kat suddenly exclaimed: "SHIT!! I LEFT MY TICKETS AT HOME"


Bad Luck #1

So, we went to her house which was farrrrr from mine. We actually went to Milimewah first to get some food and drinks.

When we got to her house, she kinda dropped the tickets again lol.


Then we kinda rushed to go to JIS.

When we kinda arrived, I looked at the tickets and softly said: "Kat, it says Jerudong Amphitheatre"

There were a few street guards/patrols or whatever they're called, and we asked them about it. There WAS an event going on at JIS BUT it wasn't the performance.

Kat then asked her cousin about it and she confirmed it was at the Amphitheatre.


Bad Luck #2

Wrong place.
So, we rushed to Jerudong Park area. Not even knowing where the Amphitheatre was. We were like, an HOUR late.

We asked her cousin if her nieces already performed.

And yes, they did.

So we missed one performance from them (and a hell lot more in an hour, if you imagine)

So when we did go to the Amphitheatre, we were looking for parking. There was a slight drizzle.
We went to the wrong parking lot (dunno how to explain this part) but in the end, we kinda did park.

So yeah, we then rushed, Kat brought an umbrella which she said: "Just in case it rains heavily"


As we scurried to the place, we kinda went to the performance area LOL. So we kinda went around the toilet area where people were smoking. I hate smokers. My dad USED to smoke.

So inconsiderate. It was a family event with kids. C'mon, can you not smoke just for a few hours??

So yeah, we kept looking for seats. Kat said "Wow, they didn't even check our tickets, if I knew, I would have invited more friends". There were a lot of empty seats.

We kept migrating here and there to find the perfect seat.


When we did find the perfect seating place, Kat whispered that there was a cute White guy (Ang Moh (sp?)) she calls them. I didn't really see his face so I don't know lol.

So we sat back and watched the show.

There were really cute kids in the performance. We gushed from the cuteness.

Just a while after that, they had an intermission.
During the intermission, Kat wanted to go to the washroom while I wanted to see if they had food around.

I hadn't eaten anything, you see.

We went to a food stand.

And damn.

Bad Luck #3

Expensive food.

BND$1 for a stick of sausage? I immediately said "NO THANK YOU"

They also had three pieces of chicken wings for...something. I dunno but I wasn't interested. I wanted a burger and couldn't see one.

So, we decided to go to the washroom instead. We had some snacks (I got chocolate anyway).

At the washroom, after we did our business, Kat said something along the lines of how she was "fluffy" (don't like the word fat here lol), and there was this random White lady who just said "No, you're not fluffy!", and I just laughed "Just not toned!"

And then she said "At least you don't have cellulite!"

To which I replied, "But I do~"

Unfortunately.


But that was interesting.

So yeah, after the intermission, Kat mentioned how there are two free seats close to her cousin's area, which was closer to the stage.

So we went there.


They had these dances, all kinds, ballet, hip-hop, tap, etc. You name it, they performed it!

THEN the cutest little boys came out. They were wearing something so cute and nerdy and were performing hip-hop if I'm not mistaken.

It was sooooo cute.

Me and Kat both claimed a little Chinese boy with glasses as ours lol.

Then more cuteness ensues and some other stuff.


Halfway, Kat realized we were sitting at the seats reserved for parents (which I realized earlier on, just didn't mention) and then we kinda just went along with it.

I had a kind of longing for a child then.



....let's get back on track.


So yeah, after a while, more songs from Musicals that I know were playing. Which was kind of exciting. I never knew my knowledge on Musicals were that big. Well, not big but I didn't know I was kinda knowledgeable about it.

I didn't expect a dance performance. I expected a real musical actually. But maybe that happened and I just missed it.


As the show progressed, it started raining heavily. With thunder and lightning. I kinda prayed it would go away when the show ends.

But unfortunately, it didn't.


So by the end of the performance, we decided to go earlier. I think it was around 10.30pm by then.

As we went under the rain, one thing immediately came to mind.

My flats.

My favourite flats.

They were gonna die.



I kinda told Kat that. I decided to wear flats because heels would just slow me down but damn, it was raining heavily!!

When we reached the car area, we realized that it flooded.

Well, kinda.

I already said my peace to my shoes and just hurried on. Water was entering my poor flats, my feet got wet, it was getting wetter as we proceeded.


And then...

Bad Luck #4

Water. WATER EVERYWHERE.


When we got to the place we parked at, we realized that the road was so uneven, my legs got soaked. It was a puddle that reached about 20-30cm? Basically it also soaked my jeans.


My flats were already dead.


So yeah, we were on our way home. Chatted and stuff.

By the time we reached my house, I found out another thing as I turned to pay Kat for the food.



CHOCOLATES.

CHOCOLATES EVERYWHERE IN MY BAG.

CHOCOLATE MASSACRE.


Bad Luck #5

I was devastated.

It stained the bag, my wallet...and later I found out, also my lip butter.


Came home, to my parents' worried faces.

Found out there was no food waiting for me.

Bad Luck #6


So yeah, sigh.

It was an adventure really.



I tried my best to clean my bag, clean my room, chatted with a few friends and here I am, still awake at 3.51am.

With a stomach ache and I might throw up.


But yeah, so, what did this outing tell me?

Is the so-called 'ketulahan' real?


Guesso.

What do you think?



Had fun though :) really like my "dates" with Kat.

So adventure-ific.

So I'll end this here and maybe I'll add some photos and videos later.


Goodnight (I guess)

Take care :D


-Nisah-

Unnecessary Drama (Haul)

Tonight I had the opportunity to go to The Mall after a long time of not going. My family aren't really fans of the place so yeah. Initially, I wanted to top-up my cash card so I could buy something from sasa.com BUT I decided not to (it was too late anyway, and I might end up having to get things I don't need +hypocrite moment here+) and the money went elsewhere.

It was raining heavily by the way, and the traffic. Gosh. Luckily dad didn't go all complaining and stuff. I sat at the backseat of the back. lol. I didn't have time to doll-up much, just simple makeup. Got to use my new makeup though :D so win~

We went to Hot Point first. I think it was the first time for my bro-in-law to go there. I might be wrong. I have bittersweet feelings about the place, but hey, the food is good so memories don't matter I guess. It was dad's treat!

This is what I had:

Pina Colada Smoothie

This was really good! I definitely recommend this BUT what's up with the absence of a real pineapple? Boring!! And my sis took the cherry because last time I took hers at Swensen's!

Grilled Teriyaki Chicken with Mushroom Sauce

My new favourite :D It's really good!! The caramelised onions, YUM. It's like having two sauces so yeah!

Photowonder-ed the photos because the place was dark! And my front camera sucks D:

Tried to show off my new contacts here.

I hate how the face looks shopped when it's not  LOL

With annoying sis.

What I'm wearing (that you unfortunately can't see):
Revlon Lip Butter in Tutti Frutti, theBalm Batter Up Creaseless Cream Eyeshadow in 'Base Hit Kit', theBalm ShadyLady in 'Mischievous Marissa', SkinFood Peach Sake BB Cream, TheFaceShop Perfect  Stick Concealer #2 and theBalm Sexy Mama Translucent Powder.

The translucent powder was a bit tricky to use. If anyone knows how to use it properly, do tell me. I don't this my brush picks up anything o.o or maybe it did. I don't know!!

After a nice dinner, I went hunting for Marina's 'Electra Heart' album again.
No such luck :(

I might have to order it online.

Honestly, I only went to Paloma to check if they had e.l.f's Mineral Lipstick in stock but they didn't. Might have been expensive anyway lol. I tried my sister's 'Fiery Fushia' and I liked the formula so yeah.

Instead...I saw that essence had a promotion. Or rather, I was just checking and then asked, THEN I found out about the promotion lol.

So yeah, I decided to take advantage of the promotion. It was buy essence cosmetics worth BND30 and you can get a free small brush set. To be honest, the brush set is no big deal but it's tiny enough to bring around :)

essence haul~

I looked up online to see how much the price is marked up here. Some are reasonably priced, some are well, meh. Especially the cream shadows.

I would have gotten more but I decided to limit myself to what....is limited. I do...plan on getting a bronzer in the future. Future might be soon though lol.

Anyway, here's the breakdown:

This is in 'Coppy Right'

This is in 'It's Magic'

If these don't crease on me when I wear it alone like theBalm, it's like ooh-la-la for me. But I think it will, we'll see :) It's Magic seems like a nice dupe for 'Base Hit Kit'. At first glance.

Do I really need another concealer? Not really. However, this is more compact than my 20 colour concealer :) so if it works just the same, what's there to lose? 

An eyeshadow base. 

4ml? Really? It looks like it carries more product than my 5ml e.l.f eyeshadow primer though.

Again, do I need another eyeshadow base? Not really.

But again, can't hurt to try! But I won't be using this anytime soon.

Super creamy eyeliners!

These glide on oh-so-smoothly for the price. I don't think it's smudge-proof BUT I think it might be great for tightlining the lower an upper lashlines.

And this is where the drama was caused.

Apparently, the saleslady forgot to put in the white eyeliner. I only checked when I was in the car because everyone said they wanted to go home soon. I also didn't think of checking at first because I didn't want to waste time either.

It was while in the car (while at the parking lot, thank goodness) that I noticed I'm missing one item. I told my family. I re-checked it to be sure.

That's when they all started blaming me.

Like...

"Why didn't you check earlier? You're so clumsy! This is such a waste of time, etc."

When my dad asked me to check again, I actually shouted at him that I did.

The bad thing is, also, I was at the back, back seat. So I asked my sisters if they'd go fetch it.

But nooooo, they're like "They won't believe us, they'd only recognize you, blablabla."

WELL, HELLOOOOOO.

That's what receipts are for!! D:

I worked in a shop once, receipts are there for a reason. Receipt copies are there for a reason.

I was wearing my wedges too so moving fast is a bit hard.

I actually screamed at my mom when she told me to bring the whole plastic bag. That caused my lipstick to drop onto the road.

Thankfully, it didn't break.

So yeah, I rushed upstairs, pretty sure everyone was side-stepping me because I looked furious and well, unfriendly.

I have anger issues. Definitely.

I think I should take a management class?

Should ask my psychiatrist about that.

Did I act unreasonably? Yes.

But they also PROVOKED me. My sisters especially.

Was it my fault? No. It was the saleslady.

They all apologized. So that's okay.

If they had my number I guess probably, they would have texted.

So yeah, I'm gonna apply for a membership next time. I guess.

I dunno.

It wouldn't hurt.

Do I feel bad for acting like that?

Yes, I do.

But I only mentioned my displeasure to my dad.

That it was unfair they all ganged up on me.

I feel bad, okay. I do.

Especially since then I realized my bro-in-law was still recovering from his surgery.

But honestly though, I think my sisters just hate me.

For whatever reason.

'In The Nude'. Thankfully it didn't break, considering it's made of plastic.

Free brush set.

The brush set is cute, but that's about it.

It was an incentive to try out new makeup I guess.

I would definitely try out the other cosmetics they have. Probably ask my friend to get them for me in the US for slightly cheaper XD

So yeah, that was last night.

Sigh.

I was a lot happier these days too :(

It's not fair.

It's really not fair.


But I'm sure I'll get my happiness again.
In one way or another.

Goodnight then :D

Take care, everyone!

-Nisah-

P.S: Join my giveaway :D It's nothing much, but the more, the merrier!!

This always happens btw. Swatch-erific!

The Little Things

Individuality.
It's a word people misuse sometimes. No one is really one-of-a-kind nowadays.
Can we really still be original?

Everyone wants to emulate someone.
Everyone wants to copy someone.
Everyone wants to say they're inspired by a certain someone.

That someone may be their idol, just someone they look up to or someone they wish they could be.

As for me?
I have my fair share of idols.

Utada Hikaru
Amano Tsuki/ko
Alice Nine
Sakamoto Miu
Ayumi Hamasaki
Koda Kumi
Otsuka Ai
The Corrs
Florence + The Machine
Pixie Lott
Marina and The Diamonds
Lily Allen
Lana Del Rey
Late Night Alumni

....and the list goes on.

But do I wanna copy them? Not really.

If anything, musically, I wanna be like them. Make music like them.
Make wonderful music that makes people happy.

I managed to, last night. Somehow.
One of my friends. With my cover of Hikki's 'Heart Station'.

That makes me happy to know I can make someone happy with just my voice.

I haven't been happy myself nowadays, but I've been feeling a lot better.
Better enough to record again.

I would love to be able to draw again. Pick up my pencil, paintbrush or my tablet.

To draw again.

To pick up a thick novel and read again.

To enjoy the little things I used to love.
Used to enjoy.

I keep having flashbacks of when I was back in Japan.

Just the little things.

Like when I sang in the background for a play.
Like when I was on the stage during School Festival.
When I performed for Music Club.
Singing alone in karaoke places.
When I take showers.
When I walk to school.

To me, the little things we have as memories, that flashes in front of us...
When we close our eyes, when we are alone in the dark.

To me, that's what makes us individuals.

Experiences only we experience.
Memories only we have.
Only we understand them.


These little things, like the feel of someone's heartbeat against your own.
Their warmth, their fear, their sincerity.

Just a moment's understanding that nothing else matters except:

What you feel. What you see. What you hear. What you taste.

These little things make us individuals.

Not the superficial things like fashion, hair colour, nail colour, etc.

People remember you for who you are. Not how you look like.

People may remember me as the person who's always depressed.
Always suicidal.
Always giving up easily when things get rough.
Someone who can't control her emotions well.

People forget how I would do something to please them despite how shitty I feel.
To make someone feel happy, despite me not feeling the same way.


To try forget how bad I feel so I can make someone else happy.

Does that mean I'm a kiss-ass? On the contrary, no.
It's because I hope it makes you happy, I do something. Despite not feeling like doing anything.


These little things I do for other people.
They always forget.


Maybe that's why I always get taken advantage of.

I'm a nice person.
But I can be your worst enemy if I wanted to too.

But I don't want to.


Because I don't want to be that person.
A selfish, self-absorbed person.

I have my pride, my ego.
It's hard for me to say 'sorry'. It's hard for me to say 'thank you'.

But I do it. Because I don't want to be 'that person'.

I hate hypocrites. I don't want to be one.
I won't agree if you try to make me something I'm not.


I hate people who don't keep their promises too.
Empty promises.


I used to be a liar when I was a child. I admit that.
Because I used to want to please friends.

Then I grew up and realized that...

Trying to make yourself look better won't gain you friends.

I haven't lied in a while. Even a white lie, I'm reluctant about.


Maybe there's no reason to lie.
I have nothing to hide.

I'm a suicidal person who's depressed, I like food, I like pretty things. I wished I was thin. I have exotropia. I have chronic stomach pains since I was small. I battled acne like hell earlier this year. I have a fear of heights, I hate crowded places. I have agoraphobia (Thanks Tea). I'm scared of spiders and geckos. I have a very sensitive nose. I hate hypocrites.

.....and so and so. lol.


I like some kind of freedom in studying. I hate rules and regulations that don't make sense.


So yeah, little things.

It ended up becoming sort of a ramble-like post.

Sorry.

So yeah, to sum it up.

To me, individuality means the little things only you know.
Your own little secret.


Your own little safe haven of memories and comfort.


Goodnight, everyone :)

Take care.
Stay safe.

-Nisah-