I Can't Stop Eating!

No, seriously.
I've been quite naughty with my food intake. I guess it's the hormones, PMS stuff...you know the drill. It's a rare thing though, I am normally able to control my food intake. For a week now, all I want is to eat, eat and eat.

I guess it's the opposite of depression. Well, thing is, I don't really wanna gain weight. I wanna lose it. Usually, I have very bad weepy and screaming episodes before my period but it's less this month. Not that I want that either. I've actually taken a break from Uni again. I couldn't cope with my fluctuating moods and studies. Actually skipped my psychologist appointment today because I was feeling down (and I had a stomach ache)


Sigh.
Maybe university isn't for me. I might have the brain for it, but maybe it's just not for me. I want to study but I don't want the commitment until I'm 100% fine. Lately, I've been having dreams where it does point to it. Like, trying out something else.


I am interested in art, writing, beauty related things...but I can't seem to get that excited about it locally.

All I do is shop and waste money.
Well, I do use my makeup a lot more now. Even when I don't need it (good skin days y'know).

However, with me eating like a pig, all the carbs and sweets....I EAT IT ALL.

Yeah, it's showing on my skin.
Breakouts and such.

My skin's been behaving so well since I changed my skincare routine.
Now it's shit again because I can't stop myself.


Veggies, tomorrow, veggies.

....and potatoes.

Ooooh, potatoes.



Kinda wanna bake brownies too.

Imagine me being pregnant with these cravings x2 or more.
I can't imagine.

I don't wanna be obese.


Well, who knows if it's the opposite and I can't stand food.


Maybe I need time out from Brunei.
Go back to Japan or something.


Do you know that  I can't cook rice?
Well, I never tried.


I prefer western cooking anyway. Risotto, pasta...I can do that.

Maybe I should try keto diet again.


I hope I'll be able to do proper reviews again. I keep saying that but procrastination...you know the drill.

Planning on doing a Holiday Wishlist (not that it's necessary). Just things I've been lusting over. 90% of it will not be bought though LOL.


Since my sis lives in the US, I do plan on ordering some stuff to send there but no :x she won't be able to bring it all back safely. She has a baby to bring around.

Said baby turned 6 months today!
Baby Maira :D

Aunty can't want to see you!
Remind mommy to get my Benefit thing!


Okay? Okay then.


I'm also afraid of taking my anti-depressants. Scared it'll break me out ugh.


'til then, take care!

-Nisah-